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Not everything is as it appears. In fact, I think very rarely is the entire truth of anything easy to see at first glance. And yet, naturally most of us stop there. The first glance, thought, feeling, impression, etc.
I believe that, to be able to process information quickly in survival situations our brain has developed an ability to identify danger before it becomes mortal danger. I theorize that if you have had a lot of reasons to make very fast assumptions about danger in your life, ie. childhood abuse, you most likely have multiple perception filters that trigger in various patterns very quickly. This is where complex PTSD comes into play. In a culture of child neglect and abuse that we are beginning to evolve out of, assumptions and jumping to conclusions seems to be a cultural inheritance, and, it is changeable.
The brain is relatively malleable depending on age, diet, pathology etc. and therefore to some extent at least, the majority of human beings have the innate ability to change their own neural pathways. Meaning that there is great hope for the healing of various mental conditions, including complex PTSD and our fight or flight responses. Which in turn, can allow the pathway for the healing of nervous systems, and therefore, a deeper healing of the physical body. By reducing the flood of adrenaline and other hormones, the glands can begin to rest and heal, and so do the nerves themselves. The nerves are the pathway from the brain to everything in the body. Healing the nerves means that they can send clearer messages to the rest of the body, allowing for more function vs disfunction.
My theory atm is that the fastest way to change your reality is literally to change your mind, by becoming increasingly curious of the world around you. For me this practice is about accepting that I actually know very little about the world that exists for each and every one of us. The thing we call reality exists, not in a 2 dimensional or even a 3 dimensional way, but in a currently uncountable number of ways. What we believe to be true must always be balanced with the understanding that we do not have the ability to perceive the majority of what is around us, within us, etc. And so, by reason, we are often actually clueless. I believe this is by design, and also I believe we are beginning to see a new evolution of consciousness, and therefore will see a new evolution of all things.
That being said, it is also important to understand that while you are a tiny spark of light in a vast macrocosm of unfathomable size and energy, you are also a part of that greatness. You have the potential to be more powerful than you can comprehend. And it starts by understanding that though you may have some idea of what you call life, that is merely seeing reality through the eye of a needle.
The less I judge, label or control what is outside of me, the more connected I become to the flow, the connection, to cosmic consciousness.
Is this an aha moment that fixes everything? Fuck no!! This is that Aha moment that strips bare your entire life, being and sense of self. And then the work begins, and this happens over and over again, kicking your ass the whole way until you refine and distill anew. You CAN do it. But it's a lot faster and more efficient with the right help. What that looks like for me is finding the right therapist, discovering what my body actually needs and honoring that, paying attention to the wisdom of the teachers and lessons all around me, and becoming increasingly curious about myself, my reality, my connection and my growth.
My wish for you, is that you find the help that you need to change your mind too.